Mr Lonely
October 8, 2008 by dwataolife
I always know that doing good things without announcing it to the entire world is always disadvantageous to the do-er.I learnt this from my Dad. He is a very thoughtful guy, think of things in advance for other people, but often being misunderstood because he don’t speak of his doings. He often helped people out in the dark, carried all the blame, and often suffered injustice in silence.
Not even my mother, who is married to him over thirty years, understood him. But somehow, I did. I strongly believe he always do things for a reason, and the reason is always for the benefit of others and not his. I did not ask. He did not explain. I just understood because I believe in his selflessness and what I have observed always supported my theory. Maybe that’s how I obtain my covert observation skills.
I just have to follow his path. And,learnt for myself this is really difficult. People usually just think of themselves, think of their sufferings, the unhappiness they have encountered and whined. I wonder why they can’t step aside and see that, someone, perhaps, have sacrificed their own happiness to help reduced their sufferings. Maybe, they didnt trust anyone who would place others before them just like I trusted my dad. But, I still don’t believe in broadcasting the good deeds one have done. Because these are done genuinely for the people I cared for, and I loved, not because I want people to know that I cared for them.
I guess, I just have to hope for someone who can trust me just like how I believed in my dad. Because, I would rather accept injustice, than to speak of it. I always thought I found one, but everytime, I was wrong. But I am glad my father found me. Coz the loneliness,is sometimes, abit too much to bear.
